November 2011
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The lifestyle
Watersport has tended to draw me. I think more than the football/ netball type stuff, it has a certain lifestyle around it, and with that lifestyle comes being practical, helpful and easygoing.
Spent most of this weekend Sailing! Saturday was unintended, but a friend messaged and said that he is going to go, and invited me along! Exactly what I had been waiting for… Rushed like a crazy...
Processing
I”m getting the hang of it - its a point between total focus and denial.
Today I felt incredibly rejected. So I ran away and am now staying by myself for a few days. Night One and it feels good, some much needed breathing space and solitude.
I could get used to this.
So, I think I feel like I’m surrounded by people I cannot trust and that I havent chosen them. I guess its a...
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Therapy.
One of my most vivid memories is as a 17 year old, turning to writing as therapy. Of course I didn’t know that at the time, ours was a culture where intense self analysis was the exception, not the norm.
I was in school. School is incredibly beautiful, with big stunning trees and green spaces intermingling with old open colonial style buildings. The previous night had been spent having sex...
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Trigger happy.
The last 3 years or so of high school for me involved a lot of sleeping and minimal classtime. I had a spinal injury, that was one big reason… but looking back now I suspect that merely provided the justification for processing time, I took that resource and ran with it. What was it that was getting resolved subconsciously? Or perhaps it was merely contained rather than properly addressed.
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“People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams beacause they that feel...”
– Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist (via quote-book)
“Far and away the best prize that life offers is the chance to work hard at work...”
– Theodore Roosevelt (via quote-book)
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5,000 words that change the world.
When I write an essay for uni, I actually want to write poetry. Something beautiful and moving, which will make the reader cry and laugh and change their career in a moment of ecstasy.
Of course, after weeks of panicking, I eventually research and write said essay in a day, lacking time to edit it and hand it in because the sleepless, irritable, disillusioned me has given up on attaining even...