I”m getting the hang of it - its a point between total focus and denial.
Today I felt incredibly rejected. So I ran away and am now staying by myself for a few days. Night One and it feels good, some much needed breathing space and solitude.
I could get used to this.
So, I think I feel like I’m surrounded by people I cannot trust and that I havent chosen them. I guess its a culmination of this year being full of people I’m forced to interact with, and having intrusive phone calls all the time as well.
I need to slowly regain my sense of balance and feeling safe with boundaries.
I think when I’m feeling better I’ll make a list of each person, and what exactly makes me feel like I cant trust them.
